My Scans came black clean! I’m still dancing with NED! I can’t even begin to tell you how blessed I feel today! I was seriously worried! I am every time I have scans. Zoladex and Femara seem to be working for me. My tumor markers are down to 20. Now I’m going to forget about all this cancer business and enjoy the holidays with my family. They seem so much more precious these days. I know life is busy, but stop and take time to enjoy it. Memories last forever.
That’s a picture of my tree! Tis the season at my house. Happy Holidays! I love you all!
I know it’s been a month! Pinktober has passed! A fellow blogger was doing a special awareness piece for October and I thought I would join in. All you needed to do was video yourself reading a piece she had written. I started reading it and hit the 2-5 yr statistic for stage IV women. Then I realized I will hit my two year mark soon. I couldn’t finish the video. That realization hit me hard. I never think of myself as a statistic. I never really even think of myself as living with stage IV breast cancer. I try not to think about it. I take my pain meds and enjoy life. The last Friday of every month I have a visit with my oncologist. That’s when I visit Cancerland. After each appointment I treat myself to a new restaurant and forget it until the next month. This past month I feel like I’ve lived in Cancerland! That 2-5 yr statistic has been lingering in my head. I’ve been in a funk! I have new pain in my rib and of course I can’t help but wonder if it’s back. I’m scheduled for new scans on the 17th. Having that to think about doesn’t help! I’ve put off getting my tattoo until after scans. I don’t want anything to interfere with those results! I need some good news to ease my thoughts! Until then, it’s Javiee to the rescue! We have decided to spend our weekend decorating for Christmas! I know it’s early! We did this last year because I was suffering from scanxiety and it helped so much! Here’s to getting out of that October funk!
Aside from crazy thoughts of my impending death, life is good in North Carolina! The leaves have changed to red, yellow and orange. It’s beautiful here! We explore a new place every Sunday (family day!). Here’s a picture from last Sunday.
I love you guys and I hope your all doing well! I’m going to catch up with your blogs this weekend.
The results from my CT and Bone Scan Came back clean! They show nothing! I can’t even begin to tell you how relieved I am! I was sick with worry. I don’t think there will ever be a time that having new scans done doesn’t stress me. The results are like a verdict to me. Am I gonna live or die this year? It’s horrible! People tell me to relax. We could all be hit by a car tomorrow. It’s true, we could. The difference for me is that I’m not standing on the side of the road. I’m standing right in the middle waiting for that car to hit me. It’s not an easy way to live! For now I am so thankful to have clean scans! This has been the hardest year of my life and it ends on Feb the 6th. I’m ready for my new year!
I’m almost two weeks post op from my final reconstruction surgery. I’m feeling good and so happy that I did it! I will do a blog post with pictures soon. I’ve been so stressed with tumor markers, scans and recovery that I just haven’t felt like doing it!
Here’s another reason for a happy dance! My little one was inducted to the National Honor Society this week. He did such a good job giving his speech! I’m so proud of him!
Monday I go in for my final reconstruction surgery! Any surgery makes me a little nervous, but I’m ready to get it over with. I’ll post some pictures of the expansion process this weekend. The difference with just the expanders is amazing!
My tumor marker is at 108. That’s not good, but I’m not overly concerned about it right now. Last week I went down with the flu. That was three days after my blood work. I’m hoping that could have made my number higher. Either way, I’m not going to waste my time worrying about it. I go in for a bone scan and a CT scan on the 30th. That’s going to be a long day! I start at 9 am with an injection for the bone scan. At 9:20 I get my yummy drink for the CT scan. My CT scan is scheduled for 10:20 and the bone scan is scheduled for 1:00. Now that’s a day to look forward to! I have an appointment with my oncologist on the 31st at 3:45. That’s when I’ll get the results. Fingers crossed!
I went to the hospital with my mama and my Javiee today to have my scans done. I’m extremely nervous about what the results will be, but I’m staying positive! I had a PET and a CT scan. Painless procedures (finally!) the worst part was having to drink that sickening glucose drink. I drank that rested for a while and had the scans done. The entire process took a good 2 hrs. I’m glad it’s over and thankful that I had it done. Now here’s to more waiting for test results!! This time the waiting seems harder!