The results from my CT and Bone Scan Came back clean! They show nothing! I can’t even begin to tell you how relieved I am! I was sick with worry. I don’t think there will ever be a time that having new scans done doesn’t stress me. The results are like a verdict to me. Am I gonna live or die this year? It’s horrible! People tell me to relax. We could all be hit by a car tomorrow. It’s true, we could. The difference for me is that I’m not standing on the side of the road. I’m standing right in the middle waiting for that car to hit me. It’s not an easy way to live! For now I am so thankful to have clean scans! This has been the hardest year of my life and it ends on Feb the 6th. I’m ready for my new year!
I’m almost two weeks post op from my final reconstruction surgery. I’m feeling good and so happy that I did it! I will do a blog post with pictures soon. I’ve been so stressed with tumor markers, scans and recovery that I just haven’t felt like doing it!
Here’s another reason for a happy dance! My little one was inducted to the National Honor Society this week. He did such a good job giving his speech! I’m so proud of him!
Tammy Carmona 
I’m so delighted for you, Tammy. I also feel quite upset by people who tell me that any one of us could be knocked over by a bus tomorrow. Yes, it’s true but when you have been told you have terminal cancer, you can SEE the bus with your name on it. Your greatest wish is that it will take a circuitous route on its way to you and that it will take long breaks at the bus stops en route to you!! Long may you live fear-free and able to enjoy all the wonderful things in store for you, including the achievements of your lovely boy.xx
Thank you Sara! I think you have to live this to actually understand all the emotions that come with it! I am so thankful to have you and my fellow bloggers! It really helps when someone knows exactly what your talking about! I hope your feeling well!
SO SO HAPPY for you and your family !!!!!
Stay POSITIVE, and don’t think about WORRY, we all do it and God expects it. He sees us growing more in his likeness each time he honors us with good news like this !!!
Love you sweet girl !!!!
Thank you Shirley! I believe all the prayers are working! Love you!
Hallelujah!!! So happy that the scans were clean! I hear you on the waiting for results, it’s like holding your breath for days on end. I’m doing a happy dance for you on my end as well! Here’s to a new year of health and happiness, even if we are living in the middle of the street!
Thank you for the happy dance! I know I don’t even have to try to tell you how relieved I was! Hope your feeling well!
What a relief those results would be… Being stressed about them is only normal but now you can breathe out .. Pppphhhheeewwww!!!
Helen I don’t think there will ever be a time when I don’t stress those scans! This time was the worst so far just because my tumor marker had went up! I’m breathing again!
What a great analogy about standing in the middle of the road with the car coming! Yes, anyone could get hit by a car, but it would be totally unexpected and they wouldn’t have been worrying about it every day like we do. Congratulations to you and your little guy!
So true! Thank you! I’m feeling so grateful right now!
Following your blog from Germany. I’m SOOOOO happy for you!!! I wish you all the best and ENJOY the good news!!! You painted a good picture, saying you stand in the middle oft the road. I wish for many cars to pass you by and for you to have a feeling that even in the middle of the road, there is a safe spot: the love you and your husband share, the love of your family and friends. They’ll keep you safe and warm.
Jules, thank you! I’m honored that your following all the from Germany! It’s true, I couldn’t imagine going through this without my Javiee and my family! They are my strength!
Woohoo!!! Beyond thrilled for you girlfriend!!! What fabulous news! Make sure you celebrate and treat yourself to something nice and indulgent. You deserve it! xoxo
Thanks! I’m so relieved! Now I feel like I have time to move closer to home and get everyone settled in. It’s a big burden off my shoulders! I treated myself and it’s back to the diet today! I hope you and Miss M are well!
Wonderful news! Worthy of a BIG Happy Dance. 🙂
dear Tammy,
I am new to your blog, having discovered you on Diane’s site, and I am so glad I found you. I love the energy you exude, the joy you express about so many good aspects of your life – your great love for your family – and now a proud mama of a National Honor Society student, your dear Son.! your propensity to tell it like it is – the good, the bad, the ugly – along with living as fully and joyfully as you do is so inspiring! congratulations on the latest scans – I am so happy for you, and for your family! and I hope you have a smooth recovery from the reconstruction surgery. I will be thinking of you with big hope that the results are exactly what have envisioned.
much love and light to you and your family,
Karen, xoxo